After returning from the trip, October flew by, and calculating my remaining work hours, my last 'work' day will be 30th November. That will just consist of emptying the remaining things from my desk in the morning before I am presented with 'something' and then go to lunch with the rest of the team. Then it'll be home and apart from a meeting I promised to attend in Ashford in December, I'll have completely finished. At that time I shall clear my computer of of work-related files. Nominally, I do not leave until 1st January, so I suppose there may be a panic, or even a Christmas lunch, but I think not. The interest in moving to Ireland grows, but that is complex as P must keep a base in the UK, for health and family's sake.
It was the Dorset friends get-together on the weekend of the 10th/11th and although I haven't been for many years, P understood me still not wanting to go as it is so close to B's birthday. P took her time going there, leaving on Thursday and coming back via her brother's on Tuesday. On the 9th I went to the cemetery and laid flowers on B's grave. B's ashes have been interred there now for 14 months.but there is still no headstone or any marker. Strangely, the same Kate Wolf track - Shadow of a Life - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8B1hFEthNs came on when I left the cemetery as had played when I left after the funeral. I couldn't phone Doris, Barbara's neighbour and friend at the flats, because she would have asked about the state of the grave and I wanted the day to be peaceful remembrance. I found the dress that B had bought me a Christmas present and decided I would wear it on the 11th as personal remembrance on a day of national remembrance. And it was fine. I still get tearful when I re-read my blog of her death, but that's fine, as well.
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